Overwhelmed

The only word that comes to mind. The only thing that I seem to be able to focus on... overwhelmed. I had a doctor and dentist appointment today. Ugh (sigh). I have this horrible habit of trying to swallow the entire elephant instead of bite by bite. All I can think about the big picture. I have figured out why I am a list maker however. It allows me to break everything down, task by task, item by item. I know people don't understand, because I have a hard time explaining it. I feel broken. So broken, so low that I am scared to even begin to repair. It's going to be hard & long, and I have no choice but to be strong, my daughter needs me. How can I be a mother if I am so low? I had probably 4 panic attacks today. I am a nervous wreck. I'm hoping after a good night's rest I will have a better day tomorrow. Need to make my list...